The Dream

Marie started dreaming of a women who looked just like her except she was surrounded by three kids, two girls and one boy. Marie couldn't see there faces but she could hear them. Mommy lets play hide and go seek please. Not right now Sean I have to pay these bills why don't you and your sisters Mia and MyA go play in the backyard. Fine race you girls outside the three little kids ran off. Marie what is it now Sean,Marie could feel someone shaking her wake up Marie I'm home Marie woke up to see Brandon sitting by her, did you sleep good? yes I was having a dream about these three kids Sean Mia and MyA. Really what did they look like? I couldn't tell it was blury but I could hear them and they sounded beautiful.Brandon smiled I bet they did. Marie sat up and layed her head on Brandon's shoulder, I wish are lives could be like this all the time I know but you have to work so we can raise this child and others to come, That's true the company is having a meeting tommorrow and i have no idea what it's about just that I have to be there. Marie looked up at Brandon do you think everything is okay? did you do something wrong? Brandon laughed at Marie's questions.Everything is going to be fine I have followed all the rules at the company I am pretty sure that it's just a meeting. Brandon's phone went off he got off the couch sat Marie down gently and walked into the kitchen. Hello, hey mom yes everything is fine. Sorry I just needed someone to talk to I told her I got to go mom, okay love you to bye. Who was that? It was my mom she just wanted to check on us. Okay what do you want for dinner Brandon sat down at the table I don't care. How about we have tuna helper. Brandon looked up what is that. It's like hamburger helper excet you can add tuna fish but I really just like the noodles. We have had noodles all week aren't you tired of eating noodles? Actually I am not I think it's just a weird craving I am just having.That sounds great but I am really tired of eating pasta so I will eat something else oh okay we have stuff in the fridge do you want me to make you dinner. No I am cooking I wish I could make you dinner but I don't know how to make your tuna helper Brandon frowned. Marie laughed it's all good it's actually pretty complicated but worth making. Brandon walked to the fridge pulled out the lean bacon, mushrooms, green onions, peppers, and other foods. So what are you going to make? I don't know I forgot the cheese can you get it for me. Marie grabbed the cheese from the cheese drawer here you go do you want me to grade the cheese? If you wouldn't mind, that would be great. Okay I give this cheese a B+ Marie smiled. Brandon started laughing your funny honey you make me laugh so much. That's my job, is to make you and everyone laugh. Marie started grading the swiss cheese for brandon. Brandon went to the fridge put the vegetables away. Do you still want your tuna helper? Marie looked at Brandon and the food around her the smell was overwhelming she was really craving the pasta but the food that Brandon made was mouth watering Marie sighed no I will just eat what your making Brandon laughed soundsds great Marie put the tuna helper back in the pantry It's almost done I can't wait for you to try it. Sounds Marie put her hand over her mouth and ran to the bathroom. Brandon followed her. Honey are you okay? Marie couldn't answer she kept throwing up she eventually stopped she stood up brushed her teeth and came out of the bathroom Brandon came over and put his tan arms around her.I don't think that was morning sickness Marie looked up at Brandon she loosened his arms and walked away. Where are you going? Marie kept walking up the stairs she went to her bedroom got on her hands and knees and began to pray to heavenly father I am so sick and scared I feel like I made the wrong choice please give me a sign she started sobbing a few minutes later she began to felt a warm feeling inside her heart. She got up got in her bed and fell asleep as she was laying there she had a dream about her dad. He was sitting down in a white chair dressed all in white except for his blue Dodgers baseball cap. He saw Marie he went up and hugged her Marie hugged her dad so tight she never wanted to let go. Tears fell down from her cheek Her dad wiped away her tears with his clean thumb. Walk with me he said in his deep but gentle voice Marie walked with her dad. Marie have missed you so much but I have watched you grow up and I am so proud of you with everything you do. Marie smiled, I also want you to know that everything is going to okay, Marie looked into her dad's brown almond eyes. You made the right choice just remember that and you will have those trials but I know that you will pull through. Never forget that but also never forget how much I love you. They hugged one last time, Marie's dad walked away into the white clouds and dissapeared Marie stood there overwhelmed by what her dad just told her. She turned around she heard her name being called by tine little voices the voices got louder and louder fianally she could see that they were kids calling her name She still couldn't see there faces but she fell in love with them she knew that they were here kids. Marie woke up, Brandon was fast asleep next to her, Marie shook Brandon wakeup Brandon honey please wakeup. Brandon opened his eyes turned to Marie, Marie smiled Brandon I had a dream. Marie can you just tell me about it tommorrow? No! I might forget it's really important. Brandon sat up and listened Marie told him every detail about her dream how she saw her dad and that he said everything was going to be okay and that we made the right choice Brandon I heard are kids calling my name it was such an amazing feeling. Brandon smiled thanks for waking me up I think we can go to sleep with peaceful mids Marie hugged Brandon and layde down thinking to herself that God gave her that dream so that she knew everything would be ok. Marie was about to close her eyes when she remembered her dad saying you will face trials. Marie's eyes shot open what did he mean what kind of trials.??????????

Closer

The next Morning Brandon woke up and made Marie breakfast, he made her turkey bacon with chocolate chip pancakes. Marie woke up to the smell of bacon she walked down the stairs. Good morning Brandon smiled I made you breakfast I can see that,but you only cook when your feeling guilty. Brandon st down the plate of bacon on the table. You think you have got me all figured out? Oh baby I know you more then you know yourself. Is that so, yes it very much is I have got you wrapped around my finger. Brandon backed off okay you win Good, I always win. For now you win Marie sat down and began eating her breakfast. Brandon was heading back upstaires your not hungry. You know I don't like turkey Bacon of course I do Marie headed to the fridge that's why I bought you Lean bacon. Brandon put his head down and laughed I guess you do know me. Sit down honney and have some chocolate chip pancakes while i cook your Lean non turkey bacon Thanks but this was suppose to be for you. It's okay you deserve this you deal with my constant attitude. Marie didn't feel so good she covered her mouth and ran to the bathroom Brandon followed her Marie are you okay what's wrong she couldn't answer him she kept vomiting. She finally stopped and stood up I think I have morning sickness Marie smiled when the words came out of her mouth. Why are you smiling about morning sickness. It just means that we are getting closer and closer to having this baby. Brandon smiled I would kiss you but you just threw up and that's kinda a little gross. Ya just a little bit, they both smiled can you check on the bacon so it doesn't burn. Brandon smiled and left the bathroom. Marie stayed in the bathroom for awhile, Honey I have to go to work are you going to be okay by yourself I can call in sick and take care of you. I will be fine, and I am pretty sure you don't want to hear me barfing all day. I honestly would not want to but I would be here with you so it wouldn't matter. I will call you everytime I throw up so you know whats going on. Thanks I will leave my phone on vibrate for you, Brandon kissed Maries forhead and said goodbye and left. Marie was afraid to leave the bathroom so she stayed in there fo a couple of hours, she finally felt good enough to move she grabbed the bucket fron under the bathroom sink and layed down on the couch she would not take her hands off her belly she wanted to feel her little baby move again, the feelings she had from that tiny but powerful kick made her forget about the cancer and the bad things that she went through in life like loosing her dad to cancer watching her mom suffer and blame herself for not stopping the cancer, that kick changed so much for Marie she never knew how importnat that kick felt she had felt a baby kick before but this was diffrent this baby was Marie's and it kicked her and was growning inside of her Marie smiled and fell asleep.

Why?????????????????????????????????????????

Marie had gotten her car unloaded and immediatly went to work on making dessert. She had no idea what she was going to make she just bought alot of things so she could prepare everything. An hour had passed and Brandon walked into the kitchen, Marie what's going on Marie turned around stirring the cake mix. I am making dessert Brandon laughed. Marie let me help you, No! i don't need your help i just want to do this by myself. Okay what should i do then? Did you call everyone and tell them about dinner tonight? Yes i did that before I got home Marie we are meeting them at chef's for dinner and we are having dessert here. Marie turned around really were going to chef's for dinner. Brandon nodded his head, yep I thought it would be a nice dinner for the whole family. Brandon opened the fridge, I see you went shopping. Yes I did you will never guess how much everything was. Do I want to know? I think you should know Marie smiled. Okay just tell me! All togather everything cost two hundrred and fifty dollars. Brandon's mouth dropped, but i had alot of coupons so everything was fifty dollars. Brandon went over and hugged Marie I am so glad you saved that much money I would be really upset if we went broke. Marie let go of Brandon is everything ok at work? Everything is great. Then whats the problem I thought we were kinda rich. We just don't know how much everything is going to cost Marie. What do you mean we have a great budget and we have alot to spend. Marie I know but i want are kid to not be spoiled and we really don't know what's going to happen with your cancer and the baby Marie put her head down Brandon lifted her head I want you to live Marie so i am going to be very cautious with everything. Brandon I don't want to talk about this anymore it's over and done with I love you and I love are baby and I love you both so much more then my own life. Marie walked away put the cake into a pan and set the oven and put the cake in. Marie walked up the stairs to her room Brandon watched her walk away.They didn't talk until it was time for them to meet the family at the restaurant. The car ride there was awkward Marie wanted to tell Brandon that she was so scared about everything but she couldn't, everything was so messed up already how could she do that to him how could she tell him the truth. They finally got to Chefs Marie was about to step out of the car when Brandon grabbed her hand. Marie I am sorry I am just scared and I love you so much I don't want to lose you ever. Marie put her finger on Brandon's lips lets just forget about this whole argument. Brandon smiled agreed. Brandon hugged Marie, the sooner we tell everyone the better we will be. Brandon said, Marie rolled her eyes she was not certain how to tell her mother that she was Dying and that she was pregnant. They walked inside the restuarant hand in hand everyone was waiting for them inside. Brandon my boy we have been waiting here for fifteen minutes Brandon gave his dad a hug sorry mom and dad we lost track of time. Marie darling, mom I have missed you luckily I am in town this month visiting your grandmother. Oh how is gran doing does she finally get to go home? The doctors said they are hoping very soon her attitude is effecting everyone at the hospital. Marie laughed. Marie do we get a hug Marie smiled how could I not give my favorite in laws a hug they all gave everyone a hug. Brandon gave Marie's mom Shani a hug thanks for coming mom your welcome. So why don't we order, all right everyone take a seat Brandon and Marie sat by eachother Shani sat by Marie and Howard and Jaylene (Brandon's parents) sat by brandon. They ordered there food and began talking so how are you kids doing? well dad I made a big investment deal for the company. What does that mean? It means that I have made more money let me refrase that i made alot of money more money that Ihave ever in my life time made. Shani and Marie we not paying attention they were talking about other things. Brandon Howard Jaylene will you excuse me and my mom for a moment. Jaylene's eyes lit up Marie you always have the best manners go ahead we will be here when you get back. Marie smiled and left the table following behind her mom. Marie are you ok? Yes mom I am fine I am just Marie's eyes began to fill with tears. Darling Shani hugged her helpless daughter Whats wrong my child, whats going on why are you crying it's nothing mom. Marie I know you why are you crying? Marie couldn't tell her mom the truth not in the restroom she quickly thought of a little lie. I have just missed you so much mom I mean it's been since the funeral since I last saw you. I know darling but with your father gone I have been struggling that cancer hit him so fast we didn't have anytime to get treatments. I'm sorry mom lets go back in there and eat I am starving they walked out of the bathroom and back at the table Brandon could see that Marie had been crying Brandon reached into his pocket and pulled out his phone. Marie felt her phone vibrate so she pulled it out of her purse it was a text from Brandon asking if everything was okay and if she told her mom about everything. Marie texted back. everything is fine. Brandon put his phone away. So Marie how is being a stay at wife/ painter working out Howard asked? We'll Howard things are actually going good I sold a painting a week ago. Brandon looked at Marie you never told me that. That's where I got money for all the grociers that i bought today. What was the paingting Jaylene asked? It was of a women holding a little girl in a red dress on her lap in a swing swining togather. Wow Marie how much did you sale it for? I sold it for two hundred and fifty dollars. Oh my gosh that is impressive Marie smiled thankyou there food finally came they ate and talked about everything except the secret that Marie and Brandon shared. So whats for dessert howard asked? We are going back to are place for chocolate cake and icecream. Sounds great Marie everyone said they tipped the waiter a ten dollar tip and headed outside. We will all follow you Brandon. great pops lets go they all got in there cars and Followed Brandon to there house. Marie why were you crying? Marie turned to Brandon I just miss my mom and dad i guess, You guess? My mom is so miserable I think she needs to move back home. What do you mean back home? The house by us is for sale and I really miss my mom Brandon and since I am sure she will want to take care of me while i'm pregnant it would be easier if she lived close. Were home Brandon was relieved he really didn't want his mother in law living right next door he loved Marie's mom but he didn't want what Marie was thinking about. They pulled into the driveway got out of the car. Lets go inside son your mother is shivering, Brandon unlocked the door walked inside and turned on the light, here you go dad come on in and eveyone sit down and relax. Marie walked into the kitchen got the chocolate vanilla frosted cake cut and put on paper plates. Brandon dished out the icecream put it with the cake and served everyone Marie covered up the cake and tried to procrastinate so she wouldn't hsve to tell them about the cancer, Marie come on i'm coming Honey, Marie was so nervous her palms were getting really sweaty her heart was racing faster and faster to the point was all she could hear was her heart pounding. She finally made it next to Brandon. Mom dad Shani,we have something to tell you, what is it kids is everything okay? Everything is fine Marie will tell you Brandon tapped Marie on the shoulder go ahead honey tell them. Marie took a deep breath Mom, Howard Jaylene i'm pregnant they all smiled and hugged Marie Oh sweetie i am going to be a grandmother,yes mom. How long are you Nine weeks. Your nine weeks pregnant and your telling us now? There is more Brandon was so anctious. More what else could we ask for Brandon sat on the couch waiting for Marie to tell them that she had cancer. We have names picked out. Already, what are the names? If it's a boy Sean xavier Smith, Jaylenes and Howard had tears in there eyes after your brother. Yes after Sean they hugged Brandon and would not let go and if it's a girl Shani's mom asked we have so many names for a girl but I will tell you one of the names Sophie Shani Smith, after me yes mom after you Shani hugged her daughter and Brandon, Is there anything else wyou wnat to tell them Marie. No that's it thanks for coming and we will see you all soon I want to know whats going on with the baby everyday, They all said there goodbye's and went home Marie went upstairs and got ready for bed. Brandon followed. Marie what happened I thought we were going to tell them, look Brandon I just can't do this right now. No Marie you always do this everytime you don't want to talk you walk away Gosh Marie do you not get that I can't do this alone, Marie's eyes filled up. I'm sorry Brandon please don't be mad at me I just couldn't do it. Why Marie why cou;dn't you just do this little thing for me. Marie shot up look Brandon it maybe little to you to tell your parents that your wife has cancerbut for me to tell my mother that has just lost he husband to cancer that her daughter might die not to mention her own grand kid then fine lets tell tge whole world cuz apparently it's jsut a little thing it's not something that will tear apart this family lets tell the whole world hey world My wife might die and she is scared to at that moment Marie stopped yelling she sat back on the bed and touched her stomache Brandon looked at Marie whats wrong I think the baby jsut kicked Marie looked at Brandon here give me your hand she placed Brandons soft firm hand on her belly do you feel that Brandon felt it apparently are kid hates us fighting he is not he only one i'm sorry Brandon I shouldv'e told them I am so Brandon cut her off No Marie i shouldv'e known how hard this would be for you can we just move on I would love they kissed eachother goodniht and went to sleep Brandon and Marie kept there hands togather close to the baby they didn't want to lose another moment to feel there little baby kick .

to tell or not to tell

Brandon and Marie finally got home, they sat on the couch and watched some tv. Brandon i don't know what to tell my mom, Brandon completley forgot that Marie's dad died from cancer and if Marie's mom found out that Marie had it her mom would blame herself. We have to tell them sometime, I know how about we have everybody over for dinner tommorrow and tell them it would be easier. Brandon took Marie's hand and kissed it only if you promise you will tell them. I promise( Marie didn't know how she was going to tell her family she was going to die and that she was pregnant) Marie pulled away from Brandon I'm tired i'm going to bed i love you Marie went up the stairs. Brandon stayed downstairs and eventually fell asleep. Marie woke up in the middle of the night and realized Brandon had fallen asleep downstairs she got out of bed put on her Pink fuzzy robe and went down stairs, she didn't realize how hungry she was until she went past the fridge she opened the fridge to find her and Brandon's leftover chicken Alfredo she grabbed the white styrophome box put it into the microwave and made sure not to wake up Brandon. She sat at the table and ate here food she ate most of it but she left a little for tommorrows lunch Marie put the food back in the fridge and realized she still had to call her mom and Brandon's family and invite them over for dinner she grabbed a notbook and pen from her purse she looked at all the names she had picked for her future child she smiled and turned the page carefully she wrote down some ideas what they could make for dinner she thought of a bbq with hamburgers and hotdogs or would it be better to make a gourmet meal Maries head was spinning i have no idea what to make Marie went by the couch and gently woke up Brandon. Wakeup I can't think of what to make for dinner tommorrow I need your help. Brandon opened his eyes slowly, do we have to do this right now it's Brandon looked at his fossil watch it's 3 am. Please sweetie Brandon got off the couch and sighed lets do this Marie Shot a huge smile and hugged Brandon they walked to the table. So what do you want to food them Marie told Brandon about all her ideas we could do the bbq but Brandon Honey sweetie we are giving them bad and Awesome news. Brandon rolled his eyes how about we go out to dinner and come back for dessert. Marie nodded her head but what should we have for dessert. Brandon rolled his eyes and smiled lets go to bed Marie and sleep on it. Fine you win lets go Marie was smiling as she walked up the stairs and got into bed Brandon followed I love you Marie love you too Brandon. Marie couldn't sleep so she layed there thinking about her little baby and the dinner and dessert she needed to plan. Marie eventually fell asleep by the time Marie woke up Brandon was already at work he left Marie a note on her soft hot pink pillow saying i love you Babe, and don't worry about a thing i will take care of everything he drew a girl getting flowers from a boy on the note she looked at her dresser and saw her favorite flower sitting there in a glass she picked up the purple daisey and smiled she got ot of bed got dressed did her hair ate some cereal and locked the door and left the house in her black car and drove away she had to go to the grocery store and buy some food she had money saved up she pulled into the parking lot parked the car and got out and grabbed a cart and headed inside the store Marie pulled out her phone dialed Brandon's number hey Marie i just wanted to see how you were doing at work? I am doing great the company had there meeting this morning so that's why i left without saying goodbye sorry but i left a note. I know i love your little random notes i love the little drawings you draw on them Brandon smiled i just want you to know that i love you Marie,but Ihave to get back to work I am with some clients and I need to demonstrate the product oh my bad i love you love you too bye Marie hung up and headed to the dairy isle she got 4 gallons of 2% low fat milk she grabbed a carton of butter and six bags of shredded cheese and headed for the grains she got four things of whole grain bread some noodles different shapes and some rice. She headed to the check out when she realized she forgot the chips she walked to the junk isle and grabbed some dorritos all the different flavors and 4 bags of tortilla chips. She grabbed her and Brandon's favorite candy and headed to the meat she got turkey bacon, turkey steaks,tofu dogs and veggitarian burgers and she decided to grab lean bacon lean meat and hot dogs she headed to the vegetables and fruit grabbed grapes and strawberries pineapple basically she is health nut so she grabbed everything. she grabbed everything else that was on her list she fianlly was done went to the checkout it rang up to two hundred and fifty dollars and fifty cents she handed the cashier a handful of coupons the cashier was a teenage boy with black emo hair and black eyeliner he rolled his eyes. he went through the coupons and was really annoyed with Marie he finally finished checking the coupons he sighed your total is fifty dollars. Here you go Marie pulled out fifty dollars and gave it to the cashier have a nice day mam. I was wondering if i could have some help with my groceries the teen rolled his eyes again and said of course in a sarcastic tone. The teen asked his manager to watch over his register so he could help Marie. Thankyou so much um whats your name? It's Tanner nice meeting you Tanner my name is Marie thankyou so much for helping with everything whatever Marie rolled her eyes Tanner finished loading the grocieries. There you go all done, thankyou so much Tanner she handed him aten dollar bill. Wow really, you deserve it kid and i hope that when i came back you will have a better attitude and that you will like your job. Tanner smiled at Marie for you i will try it was nice meeting you. Tanner walked away Marie got in her car and drove away. Marie was feeling relieved to have finished her shopping now she had to go home and get everything ready for the big news she was about to tell everyone.

Names

So what do you want to talk about while were waiting? Brandon asked Marie, I really want to talk about the baby! Brandon smiled what about the baby do you want to talk about? well we still need a name for it Marie looked at Brandon's hand and then into his eyes how about we talk about names then good idea okay do you have some names you want to call are child well Marie you know i had a brother who i admired well when i found out that we were going to have a baby i was thinking we could name him if it's a boy after my brother Sean. Marie smiled if it's a boy his name will be Sean, now how about a middle name do we want him to have a middle name for Sean? Brandon smiled how about Sean Xavier Smith. Marie smiled i love that name Brandons watch went off oh got to go check dinner be right back think of some girl names while i'm gone. Brandon hurried so the food would not burn. Marie grabbed her purse and pulled out a pen and a note book she wanted to write down her ideas she thought of everything she had so many girl names but no middle names at least she had some ideas. Brandon came back with the food it was covered up so Marie couldn't see it so you ready to eat? Honestly Brandon i kinda want to finish talking about names. Usually somone would be upset that after you just cooked dinner for someone who was really hungry and then just told you that they wanted to wait a little bit,but Brandon smiled at Marie sat the food down on the table next to them and said sounds great Marie smiled okay i made a list i will just name them. Charity,Hope,chloe,sophie, and if we have twin girls Mia and Mya. That sounds great what about middle names? I was thinking that we could have Alice for Mia and MyA i thought she could be like her daddy and not have a middle name and Sophie jayla Smith. what about the other names We'll Chloe Marie Smith after me and Charity Charlene Faith Liily Smith and Hope Zoey Smith. What do you think i love those names Marie smiled alright how about we eat Brandon grabbed the trays from the table all right on the count of three make it four Brandon smiled alright four take the your lid off ok one-two-three-four go Marie removed the lid and was amazed by what she saw alfredo doodles with chicken oh my gosh Brandon you remembered after all these years. Marie leaned across the table and kissed Brandon on the lips how could i forget dear it was the first thing i ever made you Marie remembered that day they were in preschool togather and Brandon was Marie's waiter she ordered Alfredo noodles with chicken. Marie came back to reallity you know i married the best man in the whole intire world. Brandon blushed they started eating they talked about everything they used to when they were younger they finished eating and left there place the place were they shared there first dance there first kiss and where they fell in love and now there special place would be were they decided there Babies future where they knew they were going to be togather for all eternity.